| Location | London |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Miscarriage |
| Date of Birth | 2008 |
| Date of Death | 2008 |
| Visitors | 539 since 24/02/2009 |
| Creator |
on 26/09/2008 i found out i was pregnant, the lines were faint BUT THERE....
my partner had gone 2visit his family in his country and wasnt due back till 28october so i thought id keep it secret till he returned plus i didnt want 2say it over the fon.i was so happy and yet a little worried,,how would other people take the news??
i lay in bed that night grinning 2myself, i was going to be a mummy again,
i placed my hand on my belly and whisperd, YOUR DADDYS GOING TO BE VERY SHOCKED WHEN HE GETS HOME AND FINDS OUT YOUR IN HERE ..
sadly, i only had days to get use to the idea as on sunday 05/10/2008 i started bleeding,
id had 4good uneventfull pregnancys befor so i was worried,,
i went to my doctors 1st thing in the morning, and he said that i was miscarrying, i wasnt even 6weeks.
i was gutted, my partner didnt even no i was ever pregnant!
i was on my own and scared, id never had anyhing like this happen to me before,,
why me?
was it coz i was an older mum?
what was i going to say or do??
i decided not to tell him or anyone else and carry on as normal as i could,
the pain of not telling was getting to me, i was snappy and moany,i told people i was moany coz i was stressed ,
i didnt want my children knowing, there was no need 2worry them all,
it was gone now..
i was starting to feel very guilty about hiding the pregnancy and miscarriage..
5weeks after the miscarriage my partner and i had a huge row and i blerted it out, his face said a thousand words,i explained that i hadnt told him as the time just never seemed right.
the truth was,,the longer it got, the harder it was to tell him,
i never gave my baby a name but a facebook friend suggested i did so im calling her MERSEY after the river in liverpool,(my grandmas birthplace)and her middle name is TASE,(a little joke between me and my partner)
my baby can go up 2heavens nursery with a real proper name
she will not be forgotten or hidden anymore..........
look after your brother dibran xxx
sleep sweetly our tiny princess xxx
Where do they go to, the people who leave?
Are they around us, in the cool evening breeze?
Do they still hear us, and watch us each day?
I'd like you to think of them with us that way.
Where do they go to, when no longer here?
I think that they stay with us, calming our fear
Loving us always, holding our hands
Walking beside us, on grass or on sand.
Where do they go to, well it's my belief
They watch us and help us to cope with our grief
They comfort and stay with us, through each of our days
Guiding us always through life's mortal maze
Precious Child by Karen Taylor Good
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
After making his new angel
God looked down from above
He happened to notice you
And all he saw was love
He said to the angel
"I need to send you there,
There is where you'll be loved
Where you will feel the most care"
So God sent you this angel
To nuture, love and grow
But not an angel you could keep
For it would soon be time to go
You taught this angel wonderful things
That only a mother could do
Your angel learnt compassion and warmth
Whilst living inside of you
This angel was one that would have to leave
One you'd hardly hold
One you'd mourn for the rest of your life
If the truth be told
God realised you'd miss this angel
And so he gave you tears
A way to express your love
Over the coming years
Then God called this angel home
And asked what the angel had learned
The angel said a love so strong
In a mothers heart had burned
"I learnt that love can exist
Even when I've gone
For love never dies you see
I've learnt it carries on"
God looked at the angel
Smiled and gave a sigh
"You have learnt a valuable lesson
That often passes people by"
The angel looked at God and asked
"Why is my mummy so sad?"
God answered "when I called you home
It made her miss what she had;
But soon she will realise
I sent her a special gift
I sent her you my child
Although I took you swift
Her love for you will never wain
You will remain ever in her heart
You will be in her thoughts and feelings
Like you've never been apart"
The angel asked God what this mummy did
To deserve such a wonderful thing
"Your mummy is so pure of heart
she makes the angels want to sing"
The angel thanked God
For giving him such a lovely mum
So you see in loving your angel
Your work is truly done
God didn't wish to punish you
He only showed you love
He gave you a special angel
A gift from heaven above
He knows only a special person
Can be an angel mum
He made us in his image
He lost his only son
He know's just how your heart aches
And wished that wasn't so
But your angel is so happy
In God's heavenly home
So when you think of your angel
Please just smile, don't weep
Be proud that God chose you
To love an angel so sweet
When your heart feels empty
Your life so full of despair
Remember God picked you!
Because no-one else compares
(Author Unknown)
A letter from heaven
To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say...
but first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; here is just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight
Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, 'I welcome you
It's good to have you back again; you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on
I need you here badly; you're part of my plan
There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man
God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight
God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night
When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years
because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain
I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned
But if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.
There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
but together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too...
that as you give unto the world, the world will give to you
If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain,
then you can say to God at night......'My day was not in vain.'
And now I am contented....that my life has been worthwhile,
knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.
So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go
When you're walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go.... from that body to be free,
remember you're not going.....you're coming here to me.
Daddy, please don't look so sad,
Mama please don't cry~
"Cause I am in the arms of Jesus
and He sings me lullabies."
Please, try not to question God,
Don't think he is unkind
Don't think He sent me to you,
and then He changed his mind.
You see, I am a special child,
and I'm needed up above
I'm the special gift you gave Him,
the product of your love.
I'll always be there with you
and watch the sky at night,
Find the brightest star that's gleaming,
That's my halo's brilliant light.
You'll see me in the morning frost,
that mists your window pane.
That's me in the summer showers,
I'll be dancing in the rain.
When you feel a little breeze,
from a gentle wind that blows
That's me, I'll be there,
planting a kiss on your nose.
When you see a child playing,
and your heart feels a little tug,
That's me, I'll be there,
giving your heart a hug.
So Daddy, please don't look so sad,
Mama don't you cry.
I'm in the arms of Jesus
and He sings me lullabies.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Sent with love
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I believe in Angels
I wish it wasnt true,
We didnt want an Angel
We only wanted you,
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Youve left behind our broken hearts.
Our thoughts and photos too.
We didnt want a memory
We only wanted you .
♥.•** •.♥.•** •.♥.♥ ♥
Sweet Dreams Beautiful Angel.xXxXx
baby castle
In a baby castle
just beyond my eye,
My baby plays with angel toys
that money just can’t buy.
Who am I to wish him back
Into this world of strife,
No – play on my baby
You have eternal life.
At night when all is silent
and sleep forsakes my eyes,
I’ll hear his tiny footsteps
Come running to my side.
His little hands caress me
So tenderly and sweet,
I’ll breathe a prayer and close my eyes
And embrace him in my sleep.
Now I have a treasure
That I rate above all other,
I have known true glory
For I am still his Mother
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